When the door shuts, the silence hits first.

Not the satisfying kind — the kind that feels like the world just erased all evidence that anything happened at all. The kind that reminds her she was wanted a moment ago, then forgotten just as quickly.

Her breathing is still uneven. Her body is still warm from his hands. The marks still throb like fresh truth beneath her skin. But the room is already going back to normal — and she’s expected to do the same.

She pulls her dress down slowly, not because she’s fragile, but because she’s trying to hang onto the last moment she wasn’t alone.

He took everything he came for.
And she let him.
And she wanted to.
And now she has to live with the quiet.

The knife he held and the paddle he swung both feel more honest than the way he said goodbye.

She doesn’t regret it.
She regrets that it never seems to be enough.

The crash isn’t dramatic. There are no tears. No crumbling. Just a hollow drop inside her that reminds her she feels deeper than she’s supposed to. That she hopes for more than she’s allowed to or will ever be.

She gathers herself, as if that’s easy.
As if she didn’t just open a door that he walks out of every time without looking back.

She checks the lock — because he told her to.

Then she stands there for a moment, steadying her breath, letting her heartbeat slow, reminding her body that she is still hers again.

It’s not the marks that hurt.
It’s the waiting for the next time she’s allowed to feel wanted.

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