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Fractures

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She does not know exactly when the breaking began.
There was no great collision, no single moment violent enough
to explain the wreckage. Just small fractures.

A silence where there used to be words.
A hand that stopped reaching. A place beside someone
that slowly stopped feeling like hers. Another moment of realizing
she had mistaken being wanted for being chosen.

Another person who could find her when they needed warmth,
comfort, laughter, softness, something easy to reach for,
but somehow never learned how to reach for her
when she was the one who needed something.

And somewhere beneath all of that, the first crack appeared.

She covered it well. She has always known how.
She smiled over it. Worked over it. Wrote beautiful things over it.
Held other people’s pain with hands already trembling
beneath the weight of her own.

But cracks do not disappear because no one notices them.
They spread quietly through the places where hope lives,
through every tender part of her that still believed someday
someone might look at all that she is
and decide she was worth the effort of staying.

Not visiting. Not reaching when lonely.
Not remembering her when convenient. Staying.

And God, she is tired of pretending that wanting that does not hurt.

She is tired of being strong enough to understand everyone’s reasons.
Their lives are complicated. They are busy. They have responsibilities.
They are tired. They have their own wounds.

She knows. She always knows.

She can explain every absence until it sounds almost reasonable.
But understanding why someone does not choose her
has never made it hurt less to remain unchosen.

So another piece loosens. Then another. And another.
Until she can feel parts of herself falling away
while she stands perfectly still, trying not to make a sound.

Because there is something humiliating about breaking
over things everyone else seems able to survive.

So she gathers the pieces. Of course she does.
She tucks them beneath her ribs and carries them with her.

She goes to work. She answers messages.
She laughs. She creates. She shows up.

And no one hears the tiny sound of another piece hitting the floor.
But she does. She hears every one.

And today she does not want to turn this into something beautiful.
She does not want to be told the cracks are where the light enters.
She does not want gold poured into the fractures.

She does not want a lesson. She does not want resilience.
She does not want to become stronger
because something else managed to hurt her.

Today, she is simply breaking.

And maybe the saddest part is that some small piece of her
is still standing among the wreckage, still listening for footsteps,
still hoping someone will notice she is falling apart
before she has to learn how to put herself back together alone.

© 2026 Wynter Rayne. All Rights Reserved.

When the Sky Breaks

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There is a moment before a storm
when the world seems to remember something.

The birds disappear.
The trees go still.
Even the light changes, fading into that strange colorless hour
that belongs neither to day nor darkness.

Nothing has happened yet.

Still, the body knows.

The air presses closer.
The skin listens.
Something ancient moves quietly beneath the ribs.

Maybe that is why some people look up
when everyone else looks for shelter.

They recognize what is coming.

Not the rain.
Not the thunder.

Something older.

The beautiful violence of a world
that has stopped pretending to be still.

Then the sky tears itself open.

For one fractured second,
everything hidden is illuminated.

Every tree.
Every empty road.
Every shadow that thought darkness could keep its secrets.

Then blackness again.

Darker somehow for having been interrupted.

Rain strikes the roof, runs in silver rivers down glass,
gathers in places that were dry only moments before.

The wind bends what will bend.
The water finds what was left open.

And the thunder keeps speaking
to something beneath the skin.

People close their windows.
Lock their doors.
Wait for it to pass.

But some stand at the glass and watch.

Not because they are waiting for the sky to clear.
Not because they need the sun to return.

Some have simply learned
there are kinds of darkness that do not frighten them.

Some hear thunder
and feel something inside them answer.

Some watch the sky tear itself open and understand
why beautiful things do not always need to be gentle.

The storm will pass.

They always do.

But for a little while,
the sky is allowed to become exactly what it is.

Dark.
Loud.
Uncontained.

And no one asks it to apologize.

© 2026 Wynter Rayne. All Rights Reserved.

All of Her

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She has heard it in different words her entire life.
Sometimes spoken. Sometimes implied. Sometimes delivered
through the slow disappearance of people who once seemed certain
they wanted to know her.

She is too much.

Too much emotion. Too much intensity. Too much presence.
Too much body occupying too much space.
She laughs too loudly, cares too deeply, notices too quickly,
remembers too much and feels everything long after everyone else has moved on.

People seem to like her best in pieces.
The funny part. The useful part. The reckless part.
The part that answers the phone, makes things easier,
or becomes whatever the moment requires.

She can be a good time.
She can be the name remembered after too many drinks,
the curiosity someone finally decides to explore,
the person reached for when ordinary no longer satisfies.

She can be wanted.

God, she knows she can be wanted.

But wanted and chosen have never meant the same thing,
and she learned that distinction slowly, painfully,
through enough almosts to recognize
the difference before anyone has to explain it.

Chosen belongs to daylight.

Chosen gets ordinary mornings and inconvenient afternoons.
Chosen gets a place that does not disappear when circumstances change.
Chosen does not have to wonder whether silence means busy, overwhelmed,
bored, finished, or simply forgotten.

She has never understood what makes someone become that person.

The one people stay for.
The one they make room for instead of fitting into whatever space remains.
The one whose absence is noticed before she has to announce
that she has stopped showing up.

In love, she has been convenient.
In friendship, she has been convenient.
Reliable enough to call, independent enough not to require much,
strong enough that leaving her rarely seems cruel.

She makes it easy for them.

Perhaps that is her greatest mistake.

She understands circumstances before anyone explains them.
She forgives distance before anyone apologizes for creating it.
She finds reasons for silence, excuses absence, lowers expectations,
and makes herself comfortable with whatever portion is offered.

She never wants anyone to feel trapped by her.

So she leaves every exit unlocked.

Then watches people use them.

Maybe that is why she loves the darkness.

There are no promises hidden in it.
No expectation that morning will suddenly make everything different.
No requirement to become smaller, quieter, easier,
or less complicated before she is allowed to belong.

The darkness has never asked her to explain her size.

It has never flinched at the enormity of her emotions.
Never called her intensity exhausting. Never asked her to soften
the sharp edges or tuck away the inconvenient pieces
so someone else could hold her comfortably.

It simply takes all of her.

The beautiful. The difficult. The excessive.
The body she has spent years apologizing for.
The heart she has repeatedly tried to teach
to need less than it does.

All of her.

Maybe that is why she stopped fearing the night
long before she stopped fearing abandonment.

Because darkness does something people rarely have.

It stays.

It surrounds her without asking her to earn the space she occupies.
It asks nothing of her except that she exist inside it,
exactly as enormous and complicated
as she has always been.

And when morning comes, she already knows what happens.

The darkness will retreat.
The world will begin choosing again.

And she will stand quietly at the edge of the daylight,
wondering what it might feel like, just once,
to be too much
and still be chosen.

© 2026 Wynter Rayne. All Rights Reserved.

Unsent

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She almost sent it. Something funny, something strange,
something that would have earned exactly the response
she already knew was coming. Her thumb hovered. Then stopped.
It was such a small thing to notice.

There had been a time when she never thought about whether to send something.
She just did. A ridiculous video. A song. A headline.
A random thought that required exactly one person
to understand why it was funny.

Somewhere along the way, someone had become part of her daily language.
Not dramatically. Not intentionally.
Just through the accumulation of ordinary things.
Conversations. Opinions. Sarcasm.

Advice she sometimes asked for and sometimes received without asking.
The occasional brutal observation she did not particularly want to hear
but usually needed. There was comfort in knowing there was someone
she could throw a thought toward and trust that something interesting would come back.

She valued that. More than she realized until it became less frequent.
She knows life gets complicated. People get overwhelmed.
Families need them. Responsibilities pile up.
Some people become quiet when the world gets heavy.

She knows all of this. Understanding, however,
does not make silence feel less silent.
And friendship is a strange thing. There are no contracts.
No required number of messages per week. No attendance policy.

No official notice when something changes.
Sometimes it simply does. One person notices first.
She noticed.

She also noticed that she had begun doing something she never used to do:
wondering if she was bothering someone.
That bothered her more than the silence itself.
Because friendship had never felt like asking permission to exist in someone’s day.

She considered asking about it. Directly. No drama. No accusations.
Just: What do you need from me?
Space? Fine. Someone in your corner? Already there.
She could work with almost anything except guessing.

But eventually she realized she had already provided all the information necessary.
She had shown up. She had checked in. She had cared.
Nothing more needed explaining.

So the next time something made her laugh, she didn’t send it.
When she saw something that would have started a twenty-minute argument
neither of them actually cared about, she kept scrolling.
When a thought appeared that belonged naturally in an old conversation,
she let it remain only a thought.

Not because she was angry. Not because she had stopped caring.
And certainly not because she wanted the friendship to disappear.
She simply stopped initiating. There is a difference.

She hopes someday she stops noticing every unsent thing.
She hopes even more that she doesn’t have to.

But for now, the funny video stays in her phone.
The thought goes unshared. The conversation remains quiet.
And for once, she lets someone else decide whether to start it.

© 2026 Wynter Rayne. All Rights Reserved.

Please Be Here When I Get Back

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I am not a sometime friend. I don’t know how to be.

If I call you my friend, particularly if I call you one of my best friends, there is weight behind the word. I am a ride-or-die kind of friend. I show up. I listen. I remember the things you told me three conversations ago. I check on you when something doesn’t sound right. I celebrate your victories without needing to make them about me, and when your world falls apart, I will sit down in the rubble with you without asking how long we’re going to be there.

I don’t require constant communication. I don’t need daily texts, weekly phone calls, or proof that I still matter to you. Life gets busy. People get overwhelmed. Sometimes we disappear into our own lives for a while because there simply isn’t enough of us to go around. I understand seasons.

What I don’t understand is silence used in place of communication.

There is a difference between needing space and quietly removing someone from your life while they are still standing there wondering what changed. And maybe that distinction matters more to me than it does to other people.

Because I am an adult. I understand boundaries.

You can tell me, I’m going through some shit right now and I don’t have much to give. You can tell me, I need to pull inward for a while. You can tell me, Something has changed for me and I don’t know how to explain it yet. Hell, you can simply say, I’m going through a season. Please be here when I get back.

And I will. That’s the thing. I will.

I will give you room without punishing you for needing it. I will not demand explanations you aren’t ready to give. I will not make your difficult season about how inconvenient your absence is for me. I will leave the porch light on and trust that when you’re ready, you’ll find your way back.

But you have to tell me you left.

Because there is something uniquely painful about watching someone quietly step out of a friendship without ever acknowledging that they’re doing it.

The responses get shorter. The conversations become different. Things that once would have turned into an hour of talking suddenly get a reaction or a couple of words. You stop reaching out first. Then you barely respond when I do. The warmth changes. The curiosity disappears.

And eventually I realize I’m no longer having a friendship with you. I’m maintaining the memory of one.

Maybe you have reasons.

Maybe you’re overwhelmed. Maybe your life is complicated. Maybe something happened that has absolutely nothing to do with me. Maybe you don’t have the emotional bandwidth you once had.

And yes, maybe it does have something to do with me.

Maybe I inadvertently said or did something that upset you. That’s possible too. I’m human. I fuck up. I misunderstand things. I can say something with one intention and have it land completely differently. And I am a lot. I know this about myself. I have a big personality, strong feelings, strong opinions, and I don’t expect everyone to experience me exactly the way I experience myself.

But if I have done something that hurt you, talk to me.

Don’t make me guess. Don’t quietly punish me for something I don’t even know happened. Don’t change the way you speak to me, withdraw your warmth, or slowly remove yourself while expecting me to somehow decipher the offense from the change in your behavior.

Give me the opportunity to own my shit. Give me the opportunity to apologize if I owe you an apology. Give me the opportunity to hear your perspective, explain mine if there has been a misunderstanding, or change my behavior if I’ve genuinely hurt someone I care about. I don’t expect friendship to mean we will never disappoint, irritate, misunderstand, or hurt one another. We’re human. That’s going to happen.

I expect friendship to mean we can fucking talk about it when it does.

And then, if you need space, take it.

I can respect that too.

Because whether you’re overwhelmed, going through something I know nothing about, angry with me, reevaluating things in your own life, or simply realizing you don’t want this friendship anymore, I can deal with the truth.

What I cannot do is understand something you refuse to communicate.

So instead, I am left standing outside a door I didn’t know had been closed, trying to figure out whether I should knock, wait, leave, or wonder what the hell I did wrong.

That is the part that hurts. Not necessarily the distance. The absence of honesty.

Because if the friendship mattered enough for me to be invited into your life, I would like to believe it mattered enough for me to be told when something changed.

And maybe that’s where I am different.

When something matters to me, I talk about it.

It might be uncomfortable. I might stumble over the words. I might need time before I know exactly what I want to say. But I believe people deserve communication, especially people I have allowed close enough to know me.

Friendship is intimacy.

Sometimes I think friendship is far more intimate than being romantically or sexually involved with someone.

We give our friends pieces of ourselves without the scripts that come with romantic relationships. There aren’t always anniversaries or labels or expectations telling us what we’re supposed to mean to each other. We choose one another repeatedly without contracts, obligation, sex, shared finances, or a relationship status holding us together.

We just choose to stay.

That makes friendship sacred to me.

Which is exactly why I don’t take its disappearance lightly.

When someone I consider a friend slowly changes their behavior toward me without explanation, eventually I stop asking what happened.

Eventually I believe the behavior.

I stop reaching. I stop checking. I stop trying to resurrect something the other person seems determined to let die quietly.

Not because I suddenly stopped caring.

That’s probably the hardest part.

I can still care about you and stop reaching for you.

Those things can exist together.

I can miss the friendship and accept that it no longer exists in the form I knew. I can remember conversations fondly and still decide I won’t chase another one. I can hope you’re okay without continuing to knock on a door you’ve repeatedly chosen not to open.

And if you come back someday, I won’t be cruel.

I’ll be cordial.

I’ll probably even be genuinely glad to know you’re okay.

But I won’t necessarily be standing exactly where you left me.

Because while you were gone, something happened to me too.

I learned what it felt like to be pushed outside without explanation. I learned what it felt like to watch someone gradually withdraw while pretending nothing had changed. I learned that when given the opportunity to communicate with me, you chose silence instead.

And I don’t open myself up to that twice.

Not with friendship.

People sometimes think loyalty means remaining indefinitely available to someone regardless of how they treat you.

I don’t.

My loyalty is enormous, but it isn’t unconditional access.

Being a ride-or-die friend doesn’t mean I’ll stand beside an empty chair forever.

It means that when you’re my friend, I’m there.

Really there.

And if you had simply told me you needed to disappear for a while, I probably would have understood.

You didn’t need a perfect explanation. You didn’t need to tell me everything. You didn’t need to apologize for having a complicated life.

You could have given me one sentence.

I’m going through a season. Please be here when I get back.

I would have left the porch light on.

But when you leave without saying anything, when you slowly turn warmth into distance and conversation into silence, eventually I have to accept what your behavior is telling me.

So I turn the light off.

Not because I stopped caring.

Not because the friendship meant nothing.

But because it meant too much for me to keep standing outside in the cold pretending I haven’t noticed that you closed the door.

© 2026 Wynter Rayne. All Rights Reserved.

Somewhere, Someday

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Sometimes she dreamed of a place where no one knew her.

She could never quite see where it was. There were mountains in the distance, trees close enough to make the world feel hidden, and a balcony overlooking something beautiful she never managed to remember when she woke. It always rained there. Not the kind of rain that made people rush indoors, but the heavy, steady kind that gave permission to stay exactly where they were.

There was always a fire burning.

And there was always someone with her.

She could never quite see his face.

Maybe that was because the dream wasn’t really about him.

It was about waking slowly beside someone without immediately wondering what time it was. About coffee poured into mismatched mugs and carried onto the balcony while the rain fell beyond the roof. About conversations that wandered nowhere because there was nowhere else either of them needed to be.

Mostly, she dreamed about time.

She had spent so much of her life measuring it. Watching clocks. Counting hours. Learning how much of herself could fit inside the spaces other people had available for her. She knew how to make something meaningful from fragments. She knew how to treasure an afternoon because it would end, how to memorize a touch because she didn’t know when another would come, how to say goodbye while some part of her was still reaching backward.

In this place, she wouldn’t have to be good at that anymore.

There would be time to waste.

That thought felt almost decadent.

Coffee could grow cold because they had forgotten about it. A conversation could drift into silence without either of them rushing to fill it. She could fall asleep on the sofa with her feet in his lap and wake hours later to find him still there.

And because this was her dream, it was never entirely innocent.

There was a balcony where he could bend her over the railing while rain hammered against the roof and the mountains disappeared behind sheets of water. There were hands that knew when to be gentle and when gentleness was the last thing she wanted. There were mornings when she would find yesterday’s fingerprints still written faintly across her skin and have absolutely no reason to hide them.

But even that wasn’t what made her ache when she woke.

It was afterward.

The imagined weight of his hand resting on her thigh while they watched the rain. Her head against his shoulder. The fire slowly dying behind them because neither had bothered to add another log.

No urgency.

No countdown.

No wondering when she would see him again.

Just someone who stayed.

She didn’t know who he was.

Perhaps she wasn’t supposed to.

Maybe somewhere inside her, she simply needed to believe there could be a person whose presence wasn’t measured in borrowed hours. Someone she wouldn’t have to miss before he had even left. Someone who had nowhere else he was supposed to be when morning came.

She never dreamed about forever. Forever had always seemed too large a promise for something as fragile as human beings.

She dreamed about ordinary things instead.

Rain.

Coffee.

A fire.

A balcony.

A man’s hand reaching absentmindedly for hers because he could.

And time.

So much time that eventually she might stop being afraid of losing it.

© 2026 Wynter Rayne. All Rights Reserved.

Where She Was Most Fragile

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“You know too much about me.”

His fingers paused against her shoulder.

They had been lying together for some time, the room quiet except for rain tapping softly against the windows. She was curled beside him beneath the sheets, his hand moving lazily over her skin.

He looked down at her.

“Is that a complaint?”

“I don’t know yet.”

His mouth curved.

“Let me know when you decide.”

She smiled despite herself.

Then she turned away from him.

Not because she was angry.

Some things were simply easier to say when she didn’t have to watch someone hear them.

His hand settled against her back.

He didn’t ask her to turn around.

“You know when I’m lying.”

“Not always.”

“Most of the time.”

“You’re not as mysterious as you think you are.”

She glanced at him over her shoulder.

“I am incredibly mysterious.”

“Of course.”

She could hear the smile in his voice.

She turned back toward the darkness.

His fingertips began moving slowly along her spine again.

“You know when I’m afraid.”

His hand slowed.

“You know when something hurts even when I say it doesn’t. You know when I need you to leave something alone.”

A pause.

“And when you shouldn’t.”

His voice was quieter now.

“Yes.”

She drew the sheet a little closer around herself.

It was strange how naked she suddenly felt.

More naked than she had been beneath his hands.

“You know which things I laugh about because admitting they hurt would make them real.”

“I know.”

“You know the stories I don’t tell people.”

“Yes.”

She swallowed.

“You know things I’ve never told anyone.”

His fingers reached the base of her neck.

He left his hand there.

Warm.

Still.

She stared into the darkness.

“You know exactly how to hurt me.”

His hand stopped.

For several seconds, neither of them spoke.

Then he answered.

“Yes.”

She turned toward him.

There was no smile now.

“How can you say that so easily?”

“Because pretending I don’t know wouldn’t make it less true.”

She watched him.

“You’ve trusted me with the places that hurt,” he said. “Of course I know where they are.”

Something tightened beneath her ribs.

“Doesn’t that scare you?”

“No.”

“Why not?”

His thumb moved slowly against her shoulder.

“Because knowing where you’re fragile doesn’t make me want to press there.”

He held her gaze.

“It makes me careful.”

She looked away.

There were certain sentences that found their way beneath every defense before she had time to raise one.

That was one of them.

“Besides,” he said, “you know how to hurt me too.”

Her eyes returned to his.

“No, I don’t.”

“You do.”

“I wouldn’t.”

“I didn’t say you would.”

He let the distinction settle between them.

“I said you know how.”

She opened her mouth to argue.

Then stopped.

Because she did.

She knew when his silence meant peace and when it meant something was weighing on him.

She knew which jokes were only jokes and which ones were armor.

She knew the things he dismissed too quickly.

The disappointments he pretended hadn’t mattered.

The places where confidence became something more carefully constructed.

She knew what he protected.

She knew what he feared losing.

She knew where he was soft.

And suddenly, she understood.

They had been learning how to hurt each other all along.

Not intentionally.

That was simply what happened when two people stopped hiding.

Every confession revealed another tender place.

Every whispered truth exposed another seam.

Every I’ve never told anyone this placed something fragile into another person’s hands.

Intimacy had never been merely allowing someone access to your heart.

It was teaching them how it worked.

What made it race.

What quieted it.

What frightened it.

What had broken it before.

She had handed him every weapon he would ever need.

And somehow, in his hands, they had never become weapons.

They had become instructions.

Be gentle here.

Don’t disappear here.

This scar still aches.

This one only looks healed.

Hold this carefully.

She turned toward him completely.

His hand slipped from her shoulder to her waist.

“You trust me with all of that?” she asked.

“Yes.”

“Why?”

He considered her for a moment.

Then his fingers tightened slightly against her waist.

“Because you’ve had plenty of chances to hurt me.”

She waited.

“And you haven’t.”

There was something almost unbearably intimate about that.

Not a promise.

Evidence.

She moved closer.

His arm opened for her without being asked, and she settled against his chest.

For a while, she listened to his heartbeat.

Steady beneath her ear.

His hand traveled slowly along her back again.

She had once believed trust meant finding someone who could never hurt her.

Someone safe because they possessed no weapons.

She understood now how impossible that was.

Love itself created the weapons.

The closer someone came, the more they learned.

The more they learned, the more damage they could do.

Perhaps intimacy was not becoming invulnerable.

Perhaps it was allowing someone to know where you were most fragile and discovering that knowledge made their hands gentler.

She closed her eyes.

He knew where she was fragile.

She knew where he was too.

Neither of them was harmless.

That had never been the point.

Perhaps trust was knowing exactly what someone could do to you.

And sleeping beside them anyway.

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The Hour No One Sees

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There is an hour of the night
when loneliness stops being a feeling
and becomes a place.

It settles into the empty half of the bed,
smooth and undisturbed,
a country no one has visited
in far too long.

The room is quiet enough
to hear everything that is missing.

No breathing beside her.
No warmth gathering beneath the sheets.
No sleepy hand reaching without thought
just to make sure she is still there.

Only the soft machinery of the house,
the occasional passing car,
and a clock that keeps moving
as though morning is something
she has asked it to bring.

She lies in the darkness
with too much bed around her.

There should be a body there.

Not just any body.

Someone whose absence has weight.
Someone who would make the mattress dip,
steal the blankets,
turn toward her in sleep
and close the unbearable distance
without ever knowing
he had saved her from it.

At this hour,
she does not want conversation.

She does not want reassurance
or promises that loneliness passes.

She wants the ordinary intimacy
of not being alone.

A chest beneath her cheek.
A heartbeat she does not have to imagine.
An arm heavy across her waist.
The quiet certainty of another person
existing close enough
that she can finally stop
holding herself together.

Because she is tired of being
the only witness to her own nights.

Tired of reaching across cold sheets
and finding exactly what she knew
would be there.

Nothing.

And perhaps that is the cruelest part.

Not that the bed is empty.

But that somewhere inside her
is the shape of how it would feel
if it weren’t.

She knows the warmth she wants.
She knows the weight.
She knows the safety of being gathered close
when the world has finally gone quiet.

Her body remembers things
her hands cannot reach.

So she curls toward the empty space
instead of away from it,
as though longing itself
might become solid if she holds still enough.

It doesn’t.

The pillow remains untouched.
The sheets remain cold.
The darkness remains enormous.

And she remains awake.

Not because she is afraid of sleep.

But because some nights
sleep feels too much like surrendering
to another eight hours
of being alone.

So she waits for morning,
when loneliness will become smaller again,
when there will be noise and obligations
and enough daylight to disguise it.

But here,
in the hour no one sees,
there is nothing left to hide behind.

Only a woman.

An empty bed.

And all the tenderness in the world
with nowhere to go.

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Before His Mouth Finds Hers

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There is a moment before he kisses her
that has always felt more intimate than the kiss itself.

That fraction of a second when he is close enough to feel,
when his breath is already warm against her skin,
but he has not yet closed the distance between them.

Sometimes his hand rests against her face,
sometimes his fingers settle beneath her chin,
and sometimes there is nothing holding her there
except the certainty that she is not going anywhere.

Her body knows what is coming before his mouth ever touches hers.

Her breathing changes, her pulse quickens,
and every thought that occupied her only seconds ago disappears.

Everything inside her becomes strangely still
while everything beneath her skin comes alive.

She could move forward and take what she already knows is coming,
but she doesn’t.

There is something delicious about letting him take that last inch,
about looking into his eyes and knowing exactly what he wants
without either of them needing to say a word.

It isn’t hesitation.

It is anticipation.

It is the quietest form of surrender she knows.

There, in that tiny, unbearable space between them,
she is still entirely untouched
and somehow already consumed.

Then he closes the distance.

His mouth finds hers, the waiting finally breaks,
and the world that disappeared around them begins moving again.

But sometimes she thinks the part she craves most
is still that final second before.

When his lips are almost hers,
when she knows exactly what is coming,
when she could close the distance herself but doesn’t.

She waits.

And lets him decide when almost becomes a kiss

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